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Big Blue

by Kylie V

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1.
Have you written my name? Has it rolled off your tongue? In the way that I hold yours Tucked in so tight at the roof of my mouth? Will you tell me a story? 'Cause you know I can't sleep All this noise it keeps piling up And then crashing right down to our feet You know I could bring you right back to the start I'd let you bury me in your arms And I'll learn from watching your shadow surround me That surviving is a form of art And that's all we've got (I wouldn't be here, sitting in black water, wondering what all this means) Take me to the place Where the planes fly low We can sit beneath the full moon and Listen to the crows There's nothing wrong with craving All the pain your sadness holds But I am not an outlet I'm just tired of going home You know the world's a dying flower We are water, we are light Paint the face of misery with every shade of pale white And goddamn, if I don't give myself Another chance it'll be alright It'll be alright It'll be alright It'll be alright It'll be just fine And I'll tell you A story if you want it I know it's getting late And we've got to get up in the morning, but Holy fuck, if I don't wake up We'll meet again in another life In another life In another life In another life In another life In another life In another life In another life In another life In another life In another life In another life That I wish was mine
2.
Natural 02:54
my love, my god you're so natural you knock me out like benadryl and i wish i could keep your belly full but i'm not a provider, i just want to feed you oh darling my darkest hour my window light a wilting flower you shine so bright you make me smile and everything becomes right with the wind and i wouldn't feel safe behind you when i've tried so hard to get up front wouldn't wanna risk a great divide when it's all that i want isn't anybody waiting for me to step right in looking out on the riverbend and i hear you laughing my love, my god it's so magical read the cards, nine of pentacles and i wish i could keep your belly full but i'm not a provider, i just want to feed you oh love me like you love the rain as it beats against your windowpane and it chills you to your core until you're warm to be my shelter from the storm and i wouldn't feel safe behind you when i've tried so hard to get up front wouldn't wanna risk a great divide when it's all that i want isn't anybody waiting for me to step right in looking out on the riverbend and i hear you laughing and i wouldn't feel safe behind you when i've tried so hard to get up front wouldn't wanna lose my faith in something so beautiful and raw isn't anybody waiting for me to lose myself just as long as you keep me close i'll keep looking for something else
3.
On My Mind 04:20
cyanide prince, wash your hair of me untangle all the footprints in your mind wild-eyed girl, wash your hands of me unravel all the yearning deep inside be my girl be my girl be my baby i'm your baby and i will metamorphosize, and i will swim right through your eyes a pool of dirty green is all i need, it's all i need, you're so naive i say, but i don't mind, the air i breathe, it turns unkind and i will give you what i want to find, you're on my mind you're on my mind, oh you're on my mind butterfly wings for a feathered angel body cold and still it's like you're dead where are all the doors that i can open? tell me all the ones inside your head i'm so tired but i'm fine i'm so tired but i'm mine and i will metamorphosize, and i will swim right through your eyes a pool of dirty green is all i need, you're all i need, you're so naive i say, but i don't mind, the air i breathe it turns unkind and i will give you what i want to find, you're on my mind you're on my mind
4.
Let You Know 03:10
I dreamed Of the day When I could wake up And see your face Wherever you go Baby I'll follow Baby I wanna know Wherever you go Sky is getting dark and heavy The birds are swimming in the levee Let you know, I'll let you know Thought it couldn't be that simple But hey baby, what do I know? Let me breathe, I'll let you go Waterbody Deep inside me It's the Pisces Planetary Like another I'm gonna hate you I'm gonna follow Wherever you go Sky is getting dark and heavy The birds are swimming in the levee Let you know, I'll let you know Thought it couldn't be that simple But hey baby, what do I know? Let me breathe, I'll let you go Oh oh Oh oh Soft and smooth, you are the ocean Lap me up, swallow me whole and Let me know, please let me know
5.
510 02:41
i bathe in waterfalls on the side of the highway 500 clicks has never kept me down before you speak in freezing tongues that cradle the mountaintops i never thought that you could leave me wanting more but you're the hole in my jeans you're the soft candlelight you're the sun on my skin i think about you all the time i think about you every night you're a hummingbird and i'm a golden flower something meaningful that i just can't explain i live in my messy den, close my eyes and count to ten you're in the walls you're in my bed close my eyes and count to ten and i think i'm missing out on something but i can't figure it out it's all turning out just fine don't wanna find my way out just lose myself in the sound lose myself in the sound (you gotta let the universe figure the rest out cause you can't figure it all out by yourself and if you try, it gets hard)
6.
Big Blue 05:06
You change like the tide You fade like the coastline I know this won't kill me But you're being so kind This lesson I've learned Listening to the birds It's the lyrics that hurt You can do so much damage with words There's a look in your eyes Said just take your time If you want it you'll find it Cold ocean dive (dive, dive) I wanna be more I wanna be comfortable Just take your time You can do so much healing with words, and You were watching the streetlights That's what keeps me asleep at night Painting over these yellow lines Holding up in the summertime And I've got responsibilities And you've got yours too Let's just walk into the water Become one with the blue And we could drown So that you're always around Get lost in the sound You know I'm not coming down Everything is for you (Lost in the big blue) Surrounded in blue (Lost in the blue) You know that it's true (Lost in the big blue) Lost in the big blue And we could dream (Lost in the big blue) Bleeding into the sea (Lost in the big blue) Fall apart at the seams (Lost in the big blue) Pour all your love into me (Lost in the big blue) Oh Lost in the big blue Lost in the big blue Lost in the big blue And I found you
7.
Solace 04:02
if you knew that all I wanted was a little bit of solace would you let me just be honest to your beautiful face if i told you what i needed would you leave or just avoid it if i let you just be honest with me tell me what you think about at night i bet it’s something abstract and larger than life pick up the phone i need to hear your voice i’m so alone never had a choice if you knew that all I wanted was a little bit of solace would you let me just be honest to your beautiful face if i told you what i needed would you leave or just avoid it if i let you just be honest with me it's something in my blood something in my bones tell me what it was a place to call your own you snuck inside my head and i carved you out of stone keep wishing i was dead cause i hate being alone so tell me something i don't already know tell me something i don't already know tell me something i don't already know so tell me something cause i have to let go tell me something
8.
Cathedral 04:01
My lungs are a cathedral Every other night I lie there void of course Light me up like incense as I burn away Make me feel like there's nothing left to say Your smile is morning dew I'm never looking at you quite like I want to Build me up inside your head as I melt away Make me feel like everything's okay And you look at me like the golden leaves Never meant a thing to you And you smile at me like you want to be A part of something new Breathe me in, yeah, inhale me I'm a mess and I guess you like it that way Ooh, you let me know, baby You let me know Living like we're living for the day And you tell me something I never thought I'd hear And I whispered all my dreams in your ear And I never thought I'd know but it's so clear But it's gonna be a few more years Oh it's gonna be a few more years Yeah it's gonna be a few more years Oh it's gonna be a few more years Yeah it's gonna be a few more years But I'll kneel at your altar in the pouring rain (Oh it's gonna be a few more years) Until there's nothing left from whence it came (Yeah it's gonna be a few more years) Until the shadowboxers lock the doors at night (Oh it's gonna be a few more years) And I am left alone with everything you give me (Yeah it's gonna be a few more years) And I'll yell along as I wash out the blood (Oh it's gonna be a few more years) To some arrhythmic folk song born of hate and love (Yeah it's gonna be a few more years) I'll keep romanticizing every thought I have (Oh it's gonna be a few more years) Until there's nothing left, until there's nothing left (Yeah it's gonna be a few more years)
9.
I'm sorry I wasn't everything I wanted to be I'll make you breakfast any day of the week Thank you for teaching me that I don't have to be a try-hard Thank you for taking me in, for driving me over the bridge I said that I was done But I barely knew what it was And everything that'll come Between us will fade like the passage of time I'll love you for a lifetime that never truly stops We're just bodies that float in the ocean Together, apart Together, apart Like the trophy wives of ancient times I'll hold you up and count my blessings Said I was done But I barely knew what it was And everything that'll come Between us will fade like the passage of time There are people dancing in the street for you Your head works in mysterious ways There are gossamer strings round your fingers Watching your face turn into midnight I only like you when the stars align The pleasure is all mine Watching the bubbles rise Like rain in the summertime I wanna love you like The trains don't wait for no one Careless and certain I'm feeling calm Washing over my body And filling my palms I'm scrawled in a notebook Of parallel lines And I know that you're there And I wanna cry I said I was done But I barely knew what it was And everything that'll come Between us will fade like the passage of time
10.
When the colours Start to blur One day beside you Will start to hurt Your tired eyes Keep me afloat You're smiling back for once I start to choke I didn't know you well But now the walls are up in smoke You tell me everything Then swear it was a joke Backing away I should've thought before I spoke (No matter what happens, no matter how often Or how hard, or how bad you fall Whatever happens when you're down there It's gonna be okay So, that's something That's something Isn't it?) I see the world In your eyes A burning fire will never Apologize In the winter Like it was Yesterday Pick me up And hold me, and hold me in your arms I sit alone with you It's all it's supposed to be I sit and talk with you Endless apologies I walk along with you It's all it's supposed to be I sit alone with you It's my apology I'll set myself on fire To keep you warm I know it's cold out there I wanted more This landlocked sailboat Will pull us through Don't matter where you go As long as you Keep me close
11.
Near death frisson You said you liked the song Don't wanna get it wrong Don't wanna get it wrong It's in the way you talk You're acting like it's not You tie me up in knots You tie me up in knots Sometimes it gets out of hand But I can only reach so far Nothing ever goes how I planned In the back seat of your car Oh Jenny Diane She's slipping through my hands I hope you understand I hope you understand I wanna get drunk I wanna go to the movies Wanna take the train Escape from everything And visit the ocean Show you devotion In one fluid motion One fluid motion Spell it out for me High above the trees It's not as scary as it seems As scary as it seems Sometimes I get overwhelmed It's just how I think And I wish that you could tell I wanna know how this plays out I wanna know how this plays out I wanna know how this plays out (When I dipped in the lake on New Year's Day I was reminded my limbs are made of water Your body can thrive in the water, Ally, don't drown in your own tears. You're too beautiful to die) (Keep learning, and keep fighting, and treading through water, because You're gonna have a good life See you)

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released February 28, 2021

Performers:
Kylie Van Slyke - lead vocals, acoustic guitar (1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 9), electric guitar (2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 9, 10), lead electric guitar (2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 9, 10), harmonica (9)
Cristian Hobson-Dimas - bass (1, 2, 3, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10), vocals (6, 7, 10)
Benito Hobson-Dimas - drums (2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 9, 10), vocals (7, 10)
Tegan Wahlgren - violin (1, 5, 7, 10, 11)
Harley Small - synth (1, 5, 6), piano (11), bass (4), additional guitar (3), additional percussion (3, 6, 9)
Christopher Vanderkooy - slide electric guitar (8)
Sydney Thorne - banjo (8)

Talking Samples: Allyson Lowry (1, 11), Stella Drinkwater (5), Benito Hobson-Dimas (10), Zephyr Barry (11)

Group Vocals (7): Cristian Hobson-Dimas, Benito Hobson-Dimas, Allyson Lowry, Neil Smith, Haley Blais, Aly Laube, Sam Lynch, Lindsay Sjoberg, Stella Drinkwater, Zephyr Barry, Payton Hansen, Celina Kurz, Audrey Wolfe, Marlaena Moore, Tim Clapp, Maelou Pink, Zoe Chuang
Cat Purring (7): Mica

All songs written by Kylie Van Slyke
with help from Benito Hobson-Dimas (7, 10) and Cristian Hobson-Dimas (8, 9)

Recorded, engineered, produced, and mixed by Harley Small (Sound Fountain)
Mastered by Brock McFarlane at CPS Mastering
Produced by Harley Small and Kylie Van Slyke

Cover Photography by Lauren Ray
Concept by Kylie Van Slyke
Editing by Krystina Riley

This project has been funded in part by FACTOR and Canada's private radio broadcasters, and has been made possible in part by the Government of Canada.

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